You don't smile because conditions are met. You smile, and only then do the conditions come.
她說，十一歲那年，媽媽在準備出國前兩天發現罹癌，行程全部取消，媽媽被送去開刀、化療。那是她第一次直面恐懼，不知道怎麼辦。She says that when she was eleven, two days before a planned trip abroad, her mother found a lump — cancer. Every plan was cancelled; her mother went into surgery, then chemo. It was her first time facing real fear, with no idea what to do.
國一那年開學，全班五十五個同學同一天告訴她，他們決定不再當她的朋友。她一路成績下滑，唯一還願意對話的，只剩下耶穌。On the first day of seventh grade, all fifty-five of her classmates told her, on the same day, that they'd decided not to be her friend anymore. Her grades fell. The only one left she was still willing to talk to was Jesus.
這讓我們想起一件常常忘記的事：一個人身上的刺，往往不是天生的，是沒有人可以靠近、只好自己撐住的結果。That leaves us remembering something often forgotten: the spikes a person grows aren't usually born in them — they're what's left when no one could get close, and holding on alone was the only option.
微笑之後，才有條件 Smile first, then the conditions come
她說，柬埔寨的嘟嘟車司機是赤棉大屠殺的倖存者，全家人曾經在他面前被處死。他卻告訴她：不是有條件才可以微笑，是微笑之後，才可以有條件。She says the Cambodian tuk-tuk driver survived the Khmer Rouge genocide — his whole family was executed in front of him. And he told her: you don't smile because conditions are met. You smile, and only then do the conditions come.
這讓我們問自己一個不舒服的問題：我心裡那些「等條件到了我才微笑」的清單，到底有多長？我在等什麼，才願意先跨出那一步？That leaves us asking an uncomfortable question: how long is our own list of "I'll smile once conditions are met"? What are we waiting for, before we're willing to take the first step ourselves?
你愛慕的是禮物，還是禮物的給予者 Do you love the gift, or the giver
海地一位牧師在地震帳篷醫療站問她：你愛慕的是這個禮物，還是這個禮物的給予者？A pastor in a post-earthquake Haitian medical tent asked her: do you love the gift, or the giver of the gift?
她說，愛就是在別人的需要上，看見了自己的責任——這句話讓我們再往前多想一步：責任不是被指派的，是先看見了需要，才長出來的。She says love is seeing your own responsibility in someone else's need — that pushes us one step further: responsibility isn't assigned to you, it grows out of first seeing the need.
絕望會傳染，但盼望也是 Despair is contagious, but so is hope
她說，絕望是會傳染的，但是希望也是會被傳染的，勇氣也是會被傳染的。她十一歲面對媽媽罹癌的恐懼、國一被拔掉一身刺的過程，跟這句話是同一條路上的兩個點：不是知識讓一個人長大，是在破碎裡還願意柔軟下來。She says despair is contagious — but so is hope, and so is courage. Her fear at eleven facing her mother's cancer, and the slow process of losing her spikes in seventh grade, sit on the same road as this line: it isn't knowledge that grows a person up — it's staying soft while being broken open.
今天，可以先微笑一次，不等條件到齊——看看接下來會不會真的長出一點條件來。Smile once today, before the conditions are met — see if the conditions actually start to come.
引自劉安婷 2014 年在 GOOD TV 好消息電視台「真情部落格」的專訪「愛是一種旅行」（劉安婷）。這支訪談是一支基督教節目，片尾有明確的服事語言，我們沒有把它翻譯成別的樣子——她怎麼說，我們就怎麼留著。 ·
Quoted from Anting Liu's 2014 interview on GOOD TV's "真情部落格," "Love Is a Journey." This is a Christian program, and the closing minutes carry explicit ministry language — we haven't translated it into anything else. We've left it as she said it.
「我們也以患難為榮，因為知道患難生忍耐，忍耐生老練，老練生盼望，盼望不至於羞恥，因為所賜給我們的聖靈將神的愛澆灌在我們心裡。」（羅馬書 5:3-5）
"We also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit." (Romans 5:3-5)
嘟嘟車司機先微笑、海地牧師的提問、她自己的十一歲和國一——都在講同一件事：信心不是等到不痛了才有，是還在痛的時候，先選擇。The tuk-tuk driver smiling first, the Haitian pastor's question, her own age eleven and seventh grade — they're all saying the same thing: faith doesn't wait until the pain stops. It's chosen while the pain is still there.